yet another cryptic rant
Apr. 1st, 2007 12:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
faceless_wonderi'm feeling really grumpy and bitchy this morning, for no good reason at all.
i wish there was a song, something that someone else had written, that encapsulates how i feel right about now. but, there's not. then again, i doubt that even i could write a three or four or eight minute blurb about what's going on in my head right about now.
i had dreams last night. lots of dreams. weird ones, recurring ones. that never happens, at least in one night. i've never had the same dream over, and over, and over again in one night. that is, until last night. i went to bed around 1, and i got up around 10...and between 1 and 10, i woke up at least five times. the first time i woke up, i thought through the dream, and drifted back to sleep. an hour or two later, i woke up again, wondered why i had the same dream again, and fell back asleep. this happened again and again and again, the same dream, with the same characters, and the same thoughts as i woke back up.
i'm disturbed. i'm annoyed. i'm a little sad. and, i have no right to feel that way. i'm having one of those days in which i can't stand the idea of sitting around in my apartment alone, but i can't stand the idea of being around people either. i could fall asleep, but i'm not tired, and if i fall asleep i'm probably going to be taunted by that dream again. sitting down and doing some schoolwork, or some chores, may be good for me, but i can't get started on that either. i'm just sitting here, stewing in my own frustration and confusion. i'm trying to vent, and failing at it.
i wish there was a song, something that someone else had written, that encapsulates how i feel right about now. but, there's not. then again, i doubt that even i could write a three or four or eight minute blurb about what's going on in my head right about now.
i had dreams last night. lots of dreams. weird ones, recurring ones. that never happens, at least in one night. i've never had the same dream over, and over, and over again in one night. that is, until last night. i went to bed around 1, and i got up around 10...and between 1 and 10, i woke up at least five times. the first time i woke up, i thought through the dream, and drifted back to sleep. an hour or two later, i woke up again, wondered why i had the same dream again, and fell back asleep. this happened again and again and again, the same dream, with the same characters, and the same thoughts as i woke back up.
i'm disturbed. i'm annoyed. i'm a little sad. and, i have no right to feel that way. i'm having one of those days in which i can't stand the idea of sitting around in my apartment alone, but i can't stand the idea of being around people either. i could fall asleep, but i'm not tired, and if i fall asleep i'm probably going to be taunted by that dream again. sitting down and doing some schoolwork, or some chores, may be good for me, but i can't get started on that either. i'm just sitting here, stewing in my own frustration and confusion. i'm trying to vent, and failing at it.
