need music.

there are few feelings worse than really, really needing to listen to some mood music--and not finding the perfect song anywhere in the three thousand or more songs on my computer. that's really depressing.

my music collection is rife with music with really heavy emotional themes that take such themes very seriously...and is peppered with guilty pleasure stuff, really bubblegum stuff. what i don't seem to have, and what i'm desperate for this morning, is something that conveys being stressed out about things that could possibly have real repercussions, but not being so worried about it at the moment. that's my mood, and there's nothing i can listen to that fits that.

i think this is the first time when my music collection has been insufficiently stocked. i don't have the perfect warm, fuzzy blanket for myself, and it's making me feel worse.

implosion.

worst day at work EVER. i want to go home and crawl into a hole.

i suck. yup.

you know you spend too much time on the internet looking at cat macros if your internal monologue is peppered with the phrase "is it can be [noun] time now please?".

soy una perdedora.