get me out of here. i'm clearly going insane.

tonight at dungeons and dragons, i felt like an enfeebled demigod. i had a being that it was my job to watch over, whose strings it was my job to pull. but, there's so much other stuff, completely unrelated, weighing on my mind. it's stuff happening at my level of things, stuff that makes whatever may happen to my charge in the world below seem almost insignificant. it's stuff that can only be sorted out by the actual god, above me in the org chart, and stuff that needs to be sorted out before i can be trusted to do a good job shepherding my one charge through the world below.

forget all reason to go outside?

i got out of choir practice today around 7:30. for the first time in a couple of days, i was truly happy. i was on an endorphin rush. i was walking down forsyth avenue, from the traffic light near the music building down to the bus stop by the student union to catch the bus home. the bus was coming down the street, and i didn't want to miss it, so i started running down the street.

it was real life, but it made the most deliciously absurd movie scene. there i was, a girl of almost twenty-five years running down the street, grinning and singing like a child. my t-shirt featured a cartoonish picture of a penguin. it was dark outside, and there were so few people on the sidewalk that i could shamelessly run down the street without worrying about hitting anyone.

the only thing that was a little off was the music playing on my iPod: a broody song, "blue lights" by pretty girls make graves. but, it's a song that is simultaneously broody and upbeat, so it fit. that added to the beauty of the scene. in fact, the details of the scene didn't even fall together and make an impression on me until i noticed the disconnect between my joyous run down the street and the fact that i was singing lyrics like "hello, i'm neurotic."