my life, as i know it, is over.

i thought things were getting better, clearly i was wrong.

wash u is not going to let me coach. not even on a volunteer basis. i just heard back from the coach...some crap about having to approve everyone who comes in because it's for credit, that i can judge a round or two before regionals but that's about it.

that's not enough.

i don't care that i'm in public. i want to cry. bang my head against a wall. shoot myself. something. i can't take a year or more off of mock trial.

i feel sick.